Home
strangelings
08 December 2009 @ 10:47 am
Step One
- Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun ("I'd love a [fandom] icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real possible things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your LJ, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two
- Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free, do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

What do I really wish for Christmas? You mean aside from the things I absolutely can't have, like having all the people I love there? Or to- have the pieces I liked out of my old life back- not that I'd know what to do with them now?

1)Music. (I almost forgot this one- then a song I was listening to here at *Starbucks* nearly made me cry in public!). Particularly Leonard Cohen (ANY of his), Tori Amos (I have her early stuff, but nothing after the one w/the dreamcatcher on it, trying to remember the name), Melissa Etheridge (any), Death Cab for Cutie, My Chemical Romance- anything you think I might like. I don't care at all if it's mp3s or not- I'm just missing music.

2)Coloring books.
Fancy ones like Dover ones or others for adults (the stained glass ones are really cool!) or the kind kids color w/crayons. Christmas ones especially.

3)A renewal of my just-expired LJ account :(

4)books on trauma and related issues (self-harm, eating disorders, dissociation, ritual abuse, etc.) (like "Understanding Self-Injury: A Workbook for Adults by Robin Conners, or Stolen Tomorrows by Steven Levenkron- not the magor old ones, I have those)

5)yarn! I love yarn. (to feed my crocheting addiction).

6)mail. Cards, letters, whatever- i really like getting things in the mail

7)care packages of little things- lots of kids/artsy things especially. I used to get these from my aunt as a child and it was a really, really special thing for me.

8)crocheting books, especially arigumi (those cute little stuffed animals) but other things too

9)Derwent colorsoft pencils *sigh* (they're lovely, and expensive)

10)A good Christmas. It's been a long time since I had one.

my address is
Daniel Hart
1019 N. Peach Ave Apt 214
Fresno, CA 93727
 
 
strangelings
11 August 2009 @ 11:00 am
Unconscious Mutterings
  1. Death :: is short and quick.  LIfe is longer.

  2. Identified :: your cover identity has been found out

  3. Saturday :: I prefer not

  4. Dumped :: in garbage bags.  Double bagged so they don't leak blood into the trunk.  

  5. Division ::  Cells splitting at a mad rate

  6. Stilted :: the conversations lately

  7. Crimes :: against humanity, unmonitered by the United Nations

  8. Stumped :: Puzzles

  9. Future :: there is none

  10. Team :: of idiots


 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: grumpy
Current Music: the black parade- my chemical romance
 
 
strangelings
18 July 2009 @ 09:07 pm
  1. Banter ::to banter back and forth

  2. Amazing ::amazing adventures

  3. Towel ::i need clean towels

  4. Cinema :: Cinema Pardisio

  5. Newspaper ::for the cat

  6. Not good :: No, Very Not Good

  7. My type ::type?  *blinks*

  8. Twinkle :: little star.... argh!

  9. Actress ::no thanks

  10. Daft :: Vietnam

 
 
strangelings
Looking for a specifc fic/series- Harry was abducted the summer he was seventeen by werewolves and bitten, and then finally escapes.  He has a familial lineage? from his godfather of a special animal called a "padraig" that's like a big black dog- he ends up staying w/Snape and Draco (I think it becomes Harry/Draco- I know there's Lucius/Snape angle to things- they'd had an old relationship that was being renewed as Snape inlisted him to help w/Harry.

It was really good, and I've changed computers, and can't find the link....
 
 
strangelings
28 April 2009 @ 05:35 pm
My birthday is coming up on May 10th.  So here's a list, not that there's any expectations...

(This is a draft- will do a better one later).

Twilight series from New Moon on
Twilight poster of the moment when Edward sparkles in the sun w/Bella or of the two of them in the forest
Twilight stuff in general (not  lame stuff- hoodie would be cool, something like that, t-shirt)

Sue Cocia coloring books

Subscription to Many Voices

A PSP (or a Nintendo DS)

Dover coloring books
Color Your Own Victorian Faery Pictures
http://store.doverpublications.com/0486470512.html


Books
"Finding Angela Shelton"
"Outside These Walls"
"Growing Beyond Survival"
"WRAP workbook

 Teen Books
"Purge"
"Fragments"
"Wintergirls" by Laura Hale Anderson
 
 
strangelings
09 December 2008 @ 04:13 am
1) Does anyone like cold weather?
Yes, a lot of us in fact. I know Martin specifically does, as do rayne, lillian, the Kindern, Luc, Mark, Telluride and his group, and probably some others.

2) Are there any front runners who refuse to dress for cold weather? Any who love to layer?
Ummm- some people don't *feel* the cold as much, I think. Like Telluride doesn't. And some of his people. And Soldier. Other people but I can't think of who. And the kids, particularly the more anxious ones, like to layer all the time. They still miss the hooded grey long-sleeve shirt we had that we lost somewhere- they'd wear a xlarge t-shirt over it. People like our new vest for layering, I think.

3) Does anyone like to play winter sports?
I've never really had the opportunity. I think there's some who'd like to play hockey if we knew how to ice skate at all decently. Maybe if/when we live somewhere where it snows again we can find out. (If snowball fights count, the kids do.)

4) Are people more (or less) likely to front in the winter?
Ummm- not specifically. There are certain groups who are more around during particular anniversary times, but as for winter- only that people associated with/having to do with family stuff tend to be around more because of all of those conotations and stuff being up.

5) Are there any foods that people especially crave when it's cold outside?
Definetly! Warm drinks- coffee with holiday spices, hot apple cider (the *only* thing we ever normally would get at Starbucks is Caramel Apple Cider for the kids), hearty stews and soups. Fresh baked stuff, if we had our own place right now we'd be baking.
 
 
strangelings
24 November 2008 @ 09:52 pm
Unconscious Mutterings
  1. Spit it out ::phelgm

  2. Shadow :: in my mind

  3. Database :: lost information

  4. Expression :: distorted

  5. Boss :: battle

  6. Baby :: death

  7. Mystic :: nuts

  8. Kate :: who?

  9. Boobies :: NO!

  10. Raid :: insects

 
 
Current Mood: depressed
 
 
strangelings
12 October 2008 @ 06:52 pm
Unconscious Mutterings
  1. Zoo ::an imprisonment of beauty

  2. Neighborhood ::suburban mythos

  3. Salute ::Yes, sir!

  4. Immortality ::Is unwise

  5. Dominion ::over all, darkness and light alike

  6. Rhonda ::my kindergarden teacher

  7. Parties ::not usually

  8. Prince of Darkness ::how trite

  9. Garbage ::Courtney Love

  10. Standard ::none

 
 
Current Location: residential
Current Mood: apathetic
 
 
strangelings
09 October 2008 @ 08:11 pm
I'm just putting this here to remind us- don't neccesarily expect we can get them this stuff, but...

(aside from laptop/internet access- that's a constant.  i didn't realize it affected *them* that much too, though)

Decorate for Halloween Fun Kit (particularly for the poster!)
http://store.doverpublications.com/0486467929.html

Halloween Stained Glass Coloring Book
http://store.doverpublications.com/0486456773.html

Halloween Fun
http://store.doverpublications.com/0486446999.html

Webkinz bat

probably add more later
 
 
strangelings
15 August 2008 @ 02:07 pm
I'm really frustrated at this point.  I'm *not* at all happy with my primary counseler here at the residential place- I finally got to sit down and talk to him for only the third time since I got here yesterday, and called him on a bunch of things.  Mainly, that he has totally ignored my cutting, my ritual abuse/accessing issues (including current safety issues) and my being multiple.  And he *really* doesn't seem to want me to talk about those things AT ALL.  How can he *possibly* help me or be of any use to me if he won't listen to me on THE magor things that brought me here and I'm dealing with?  (I actually said that to him.)  He wouldn't give me a straight answer for a long time- I had to really really press him, and finally he said he isn't comfortable having *any* conversation involving those things because "he's not a therapist".  (Mind you, I've had more conversations with the other staff, including the directer Matt, about this stuff by far then I ever had w/him- and Matt is the only one who is a licensed therapist.  No one *else* has to told me that.)  I just blurted out that "then I need someone who is comfortable". 

He said he'd talk to Matt about it and see if we could get me switched over to someone else.  Frankly, I don't think he's competent to be here (he's new, I'm his first and so far only client here- and he still hasn't done shit with me!) and hasn't shown any signs of being able to deal with *anyone/anything on a "real" level here.  I'm nervous, though.  I was so upset and frustrated at the end of talking to him that I was nearly crying- this is my LIFE.  I need HELP, not bullshit.  I talked to my roommate here, Teagan, who gave me some good feedback and agreed that Tony (counseler) seemed really off base and that wasn't okay at all. 

So now I'm waiting to see what happens next- how Matt reacts etc.  Don't know when that's going to happen, though I expect nothing will happen until Monday at the earliest.  My therapist said she'd try to talk to Matt but she's not great about phone calls so I have no idea if or when that'll happen.  I've already decided that if they make me stay w/Tony I'll just spend extra time talking to the *other* counselers about the things *he* won't let me talk  to him about and do some more case management stuff around those issues w/Deborah, even though that's not what's supposed to happen.  But I am very angry and frustrated about all of this. 
 
 
Current Location: residential
Current Mood: angry
 
 
strangelings
04 August 2008 @ 03:07 pm
I feel really... hollow.  Not that this is an entirely new feeling.  It's new at the moment.  And alone.  My two friends here (the two guys I've become pretty close to) are out, don't know where.  I slept late and right when I woke up they were leaving to go exercise- with my knee bothering me I wasn't about to join them (not that doing stairs at the stadium is how I'd like to spend my Saturday afternoon anyways).

Right now I'm feeling like I want to take my skin off with a scouring pad.
 
 
strangelings
08 June 2008 @ 09:45 am
Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Rambling :: things ramble in my head.  i am frightened.

  2. Magnetic :: pull to scream.  pull to the razor.

  3. Again! :: no!

  4. Acoustic :: guitar?  echoes?

  5. Mahogany :: trinrose

  6. Promises :: unkept

  7. Ill fitting :: cloak of shame

  8. Sublime :: music

  9. Poop :: dogs

  10. Disoriented :: dazed and confused

 
 
Current Mood: scared
Current Music: cars in the background
 
 
strangelings
06 June 2008 @ 07:51 am
right now i just want to go back to sleep and not wake up again. 

i just don't want to face the world right now.  i want to go to sleep
and never see another thing.

 
 
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Free Falling- Tom Petty
 
 
strangelings
03 May 2008 @ 10:18 am
Kind of in a rough place here.  Going to do a list of what I need/want to do- sometimes that helps.  I feel dumb/distressed I haven't been writing here (or in general) more.

Things to do
-clean off the dining table/sweep around there (it needs it)
-do a least one load of laundry+ blankets
-maybe take a shower (er, last time didn't turn out so well)
-post/reply to stuff online (that, at least, i'm doing)
-eat breakfast (since I now have food in the house!)
-water the plants, again (and the poor wilting thing outside on the patio I keep forgetting about)
-tidy the livingroom up at least a bit
-work on my room (ugh!) at least some in 10-15 minute increments (I have a timer- any more and I freak out)
-send someone in particular an invite to LJ so she can read it (hint, hint)

More fun things to do
-work on collage/s (trying to do a positive/fun one too.  Maybe make that one not in our book, so we can put it on the wall, even if we won't be here too long- guess we could put it on the wall at the residential place too, right?)
-post asking about books etc. others have found helpful on recovering from rape, specifically
-eat my cinnamon rolls
-give the kids time to color!
-work on the shawl for Lynette
-start prepping packages for a few people (just small things, but it makes me happy to be able to do things like that)
-try to remember to go to the copy store to copy things to color for me and to send to people



Calls
-call Colleen re: hanging out
-call Leilani re: Mass (probably tomorrow)
-seems like there were some other calls- I can't remember, though, guess I can add that later...

 
 
Current Mood: anxious
 
 
strangelings
07 April 2008 @ 05:23 pm
Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Nutritious ::  Ummm- food?
  2. Graduate ::  God, I wish.  Someday...
  3. Tonight! ::  The anxiety of bus, BART, bus home...  Then two friendly cats and a very depressed roommate
  4. Located :: Location unknow.  Please specifiy data
  5. Weapon ::  Which one?
  6. Jumper ::  (Obviously, I'm readilng too much Harry Potter fanfic- I immediately thought, sweater!)
  7. Collectibles ::  Hmmm- Webkinz?
  8. Dennis ::  I don't know anyone named Dennis
  9. Hostile ::  Hissing cats
  10. Vivid ::  Paintings at the gallery on Market St.
 
 
Current Location: library
Current Mood: anxious
 
 
strangelings
11 March 2008 @ 12:08 am
I'm looking for stories focusing on Snape having PTSD and /or his dealing with that (Snarry or Snupin are good but will accept any or lack of pairing).
 
 
strangelings
25 February 2008 @ 06:21 pm
1) Is there any date that is important to people in your household/system?
A variety of them. Both positively and negatively. Things from our identical twin's deathday to the day we left home...

2) How has your household/system changed in the last year?
God, that's hard to say. There's been an immense amount of change- just recently there was some serious reorganizing internally. Ummm- the marys are a lot closer to the rest of us. We're talking to each other more, even the people we don't know as well.

3) What is the best thing that has happened to/for people over the past year?
As hard as it was, going to Texas, and the work we did there. And to Florida. And, if you count this in the last year, moving out of that god-awful asshole's place to stay with Jean.

4) What would people like to have happened to/for the household/system over the next year?
Deal with what happened in Oct. and work/make it so that can't happen again. Have a solid place to live, with solid help and support (as in, somewhere we can stay with people who help). More/continued communication. More self/ves expression. More artwork. More fun. More safety. More people we can be ourselves around esp. in person.

5) What question or topic would you like see on Multiple Monday?\
Maybe there's one I've missed that's about this, but I'd like to see something about creative expression by system members.
 
 
Current Location: library
Current Mood: pensive
 
 
strangelings
17 February 2008 @ 10:54 pm
  1. Passport :: Where would I go?

  2. Small world :: Too small

  3. Radio :: Never listen to it anymore...

  4. Marine :: I prefer the sea

  5. Wall :: Many of them, in my head

  6. Wanna be :: Am I?

  7. Pigtails :: No, thanks

  8. Hyphen :: Often

  9. 9.99 :: Good enough

  10. Unrated :: My life

 
 
Current Mood: stressed
 
 
strangelings
17 February 2008 @ 04:24 pm
I'm feeling- well, very *useless*.  I feel like I'm not doing anything.  Legitimately, today I haven't really done anything.  I slept well last night- I spent a bunch of today on the computer- playing DragonFable, playing on Webkinz (if anyone reading this also is on Webkinz, I'll friend you if you tell me).  On my own computer playing Morrowind until it crashed- hope I'd saved recently, I got frustrated and didn't go back so I don't know.

It's late-ish now.  Almost seven.  I had some cereal- and some chocolate silk pie.  I need to have dinner- I want to turn on the heat but don't know if that'd be okay with Jean.

Alright, after I finish this quest up on DF, I'm going to finish up what I was doing on *my* computer, and then:
-gather laundry
-sew button onto pants
-wear said pants
-eat something
-go out to cafe to sit and write or something

Somewhere in there calling Angel.  And someone else.  Oh, calling Lynette to see if she's working tomorrow.
 
 
strangelings
08 January 2008 @ 12:29 am
  1. Mist :: grey and quiet grey and quiet

  2. Eating :: no

  3. Beacon :: light in the dark, but for how long?

  4. Speaker :: i could not see who was speaking

  5. Episodes :: of consciousness

  6. Conference :: of fools

  7. Sneak attack :: oblivion

  8. Medic :: Medic!  Medic!

  9. Web :: spider

  10. 2008 :: unknown